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super shag..

2009-02-12T11:34:00.003+08:00

i need sleep!!

ytd's exercise was great!!! i jogged 4km from workplace till clementi sports hall! and played badminton for an hour plus!! hahaha im so sorry i dropped vincent and ykk's racket LOL!! but.. it wasn't on purpose!!

next week is basketball.. still thinking if i should join them, if i join them, i cfm the only girl again! hahah jump lose them, strength lose them, height also lose them! hmm~!!!

legs are aching like crazy.. din sleep much ytd too! T_T im going to hide in the server room later to sleep my lunch away!

don rain please~

2009-02-11T14:52:00.001+08:00

argh!! the weather don look good!! wth!!! why does it always rain on wednesday!!! was actually going to jog from commonwealth to clementi for badminton. tmd.. 3 hour nowcast stats west is gonna rain with thunder!! i wonder if anyone is crazy enough to run in the rain with me :x

yawns

2009-02-10T09:38:00.002+08:00

at work again~

facial was shioks!! except for the black head and the squeezing of thingy. woah.. is damn the farking pain till i wanna cry.. lol.. there are just several pains that i cannot really stand without tearing and that is one of them!!

missha moved out of singapore alr! damn sad. just changed my products ytd.. i switched back to beau kose.. got their mask and foam ytd.. got my toner and scrub from modern beauty. and viola~ another 180+90 .. omg close to 300 gone.. shit it =.= nvm. pay day in 18 days :x

and shit i haven't registered for local uni and get my mum bday present! aiya!! omg.. no time no time!!

monday~~

2009-02-09T18:02:00.002+08:00

been a while since i last updated!! hhah.. was super lazy and kinda busy hehe

where should i start hmm.. lets start with my weekend!

i had a lovely weekend going ktv~ bai-nianing~ ban luk-oing~ eating~ shopping~ and stuff!! i had a really packed weekend but it was really fun~! hahahha

on sat, i went to ktv with baobei, kim, dh, meh2 and chris! after ktv cos each of us have plans so went diff ways. so i went bai-nianing with chris at luny's place. hahahah and thats where the real fun starts. someone LOST at ban luk XD and i won 30 bucks play $1 each game thru-out. haha pretty lucky hoh hehehe i gian-ing for mahjong ahh XD after ban-luk, we went to west coast area to have supper at approx 12mn.. 5 person eat only $13.60. damn cheap sia.. hahah! dono got calculate wrongly or not..

on sun i met up with Mr G in the morning to have brunch and get sth tgt~ hahah cannot imagine he is pretty good at it wor! it was kinda fun! hen you man zhu gan loh! he gotta rush off to meet someone so i went to remove my lashes and do my treatment before meeting dear sis for more shopping and makan! we had waraku! was so damn full.. as usual when the both of us go shopping, we end up spending~ i spent more then $200 ah..~!! and i still forgot to buy my mums bday present. damn sianz! later i go tamp mall see see~

today i will be knocking off early at 6.30 for my facial.. face is getting rough till i bth ahh!! still thinking should i go for jogging or badminton or both on Wednesday with the project ppl! Hmmm~!

gg

2009-02-04T18:03:00.002+08:00

haiz.. just recieved task #2..

only have less dan 30 man days.. as a gt i should have double man day which is 60 BUT cos we have to pull it to production by the end of march so for testing and such, ended up i have to complete it even before the 30 man days!! i gg liao.. i plan to pack clothes and all to come here and camp hahaha! byebye my weekends~ T_T

so just how am i going to manage 30 panels and 100 queries!? haiz~!! jiayou sherz~ you can do it!

25 random things about myself!

2009-02-03T09:35:00.001+08:00

hmm.. when im free, im gonna start a SheRz 101! lol!

1. I am a scorpio and I am proud to be one.

2. I am almost ALL what the scorpio signs says.

3. I love my family and friends.

4. I am turning 23 this year.

5. I love to eat home-cooked food. I get easily touched when someone cooks for me =)

6. I love to cry. Whether its emo, or touched or movie.. I exercise my tear glands every once in awhile. =P

7. I am very lazy.

8. I am missing someone =)

9. I hate horror movies.

10. I am afraid of a lot of things.. Insects, lizards, darkness, heights, Ah Piao..

11. I like to be alone at times.

12. I love to walk in the rain. Especially downpours.

13. I love going to the beach, see the stars, feel the breeze, see the sunrise and sunset..

14. I might seem fierce at times but I really care.

15. I won't give a shit if you just wait for me to come to you first. (Sorry, I eat soft no eat hard)

16. I have a very bad temper which not much people see before. And when it happens, you are mostly in deep shit.

17. I LIVE TO EAT! *thats why i am this size*

18. I can be anti-social at times *YES I CAN!*

19. I need a lot of sleep in order not to feel tired the next day.

20. I have around 5 pillows and 2 bolsters on my bed.

21. I feel wierd not using the computer for a day.

22. I love hugging things and people (selective few).

23. I bite =.=

24. I am pretty cheerful~

25. I am very noisy :x

Im amazed by you..

2009-02-02T15:49:00.000+08:00

Every Time Our Eyes Meet,
There Is A Feelin Inside Me
It's Almost More Than I Can Take
Baby When You Touch Me
I Can Feel How Much You Love Me
And It Just Blows Me Away
I've Never Been This Close To Anyone
Or Anything
I Can Hear your Thoughts, I Can See Your Dreams

(Chorus):
I Dunno How You Do What You Do
I'm So In Love With You
It Just Keeps Getting Better
I Wanna Spend The Rest Of My life
With You By My Side
For Ever and Ever
Every Little Thing That You Do
Baby I'm Amazed By You

The Smell Of Your Skin
The Taste of your kiss
The Way You Whisper In The Dark
You're Hair All Around Me
Baby You Surround Me
You Touch Every Place In My Heart
Oh..It Feels Like The First Time, Every Time
I Wanna Spend The Whole Night..In Your Eyes

(Chorus):
I Dunno How You Do What You Do
I'm So In Love With You
It Just Keeps Getting Better
I Wanna Spend The Rest Of My life
With You By My Side
For Ever and Ever
Every Little Thing That You Do
Baby I'm Amazed By You

Every Little Thing That You Do
I'm So In Love With You
And It Just Keeps Getting Better
I Wanna Spend The Rest Of My Life
With You By My Side
For Ever And Ever
Every Little Thing That You Do
Every Little Thing That You Do

Baby I'm Amazed By You..

monday again~

2009-02-02T14:57:00.003+08:00

im tired.. yes again!! hahaha.. it was fun ytd! lau hei was violent enough! hahah! ytd ended up playing mahjong at kims place till 12.45 like that.. chris walked me home =) was about 1.30am when i reached home.. poor him la. reach home almost 2! n gotta wake up 6plus next day. and end up sick la.. poor thing~

ko'ed all the way from pasir ris to work today morning.. so tired. lol.. i guess i will go home early to rest today~ maybe go for a little jog in the evening.

not much mood to blog nowadays~ wonder why haha!

steamboat!!

2009-02-01T16:14:00.002+08:00

Shermaine's horoscope for February 1: Wellness: 96%, Love: 55%, Money: 85%..

Scorpio Love Horoscope
Your amorous feelings and passions are strong and compelling at this time, and you tend to be very demanding of a lover's energy and affection. Ask before you demand and you just may get the answer you want, and so will they. A win win situation if handled with care.

HORRAY!! BUT NO MAHJONG TODAY! ARGH!!!

yay!! im going steamboat later im going steamboat later!!! one of my craves is gonna be settled!! hahahhaha!!!

gotta shower!! tata!!

lazy sherz

2009-01-31T11:37:00.002+08:00

hehe havent been updating my blog for sometime. pretty tired ha hehehe! okok! tired + laziness!!

went to CR ytd with baobei, da ma, jor, edwin, patrick and terry. had fun =) i think i sang.. 4 or 5 songs ba? lol.. was mostly playing dice and cards.. that terry.. play big small with me, loser finish up one glass.. ahh.. i think i lost like 5 rounds.. heng one of them is almost pure mixer. LOL.. was a bit sey ytd ah.. but after puking, im awaken alr~! and i slept like abt 20min on baobei's lap.. haha battery recharged!! but we left kinda early ytd.. 2.20am.. before closing! thats pretty early :x

mummy birthday is coming!! thinking of what to get for her as bday gift!! although money is more practical but maybe can get her a little bracelet or sth.. STH THAT WILL NOT BREAK!! she already broke 3 bracelets i gave her! ARBISH!! T_T

i got so many things i gotta buy sia.. oh my~!

later going out to watch inkheart with dear~ should be nice! looks quite interesting leh! hehehe maybe going to get a memory for the digi cam which pop out in my house out of the blue! i am gonna claim ownership on it man! ITS MINE okie! and camwhore camwhore!!

so.. wat shall i wear later.. pants? skirts? dress? HMMM~~

jogged!!

2009-01-27T22:36:00.004+08:00

lol just back not long ago from my jog with toot bro! not bad! today wind was good and i did sweat quite a bit! hahah! gotta do this more often man. need to exercise! hahaha!

i took the bus over to his place and we went to the fishing area to have a short jog.. we jogged one round and walked one round. after that we went over to his place to see his little doggie! weiwei is so cute! keep on sajiao to me loh. hehhe! when her bday, im gonna buy a leash for her so i can bring her out for a walk! after which, bro see me home and took this chance to show him around my house. know him so long alr finally he got the chance to visit my place! LOL

i just finished my dinner.. omg.. so full.. din eat much ah.. so late eat.. no appetite.. but someone say i must eat so gg must eat loh T_T torturer! hehe

tml work liao.. so sian.. omg.. but im looking forward to the evening. ting's mum jio'ed mahjong so i heading over to her place after work for some tile workout. LOL! huat ah! I guess i am gonna be super tired on thurs since i dono how long the mahjong will take.. haiz..

random

2009-01-27T18:12:00.003+08:00

lol just saw this horoscope thingy on facebook.. interesting~

Scorpio Love Horoscope
A new friendship or romance could begin, or an established relationship can be revitalized and enhanced. If there is someone you have wanted to reach out to, doing so now is likely to create warm feelings between you, and may be the start of something wonderful. Your desire for love, companionship, and affection are the main focus for you.

anyway just finished loading some rock and hip songs into my mp3. gotta go jogging! post back later =) ciaos!

yawns~

2009-01-26T11:54:00.002+08:00

good morning all~!! ok its gonna be 12 soon.. first time cny i woke up late ard like 10plus!! normally 9 i should be up alr. too tired hehe

enjoyed heading out for lau hei ytd =) although im super tired but you heading off le ma so pei you a bit wahahah! gan dong not =x although you not here with me but as promised i will guai guai and take care of myself okay? =) i can sense ur presence hahaha ^^

day 1: wearing pink stripe halter dress~ feminie loh~ wahhahaha!!

not sure if any plans tml~ see how.. maybe just rest whole day at home as usual hehe!

happy new year!!

2009-01-25T15:05:00.002+08:00

to all my dearest! happy new year!!

woo! i have a wonderful weekend till now =) totally enjoyed myself..

finally home sweet home after 2 days of staying out!

only slept for 4 hrs ah.. im tired.. lol.. just home though.. and gotta head out soon!

i shall blog again tonight or sth when i have time! tata~!

hahhahah :x

2009-01-23T09:13:00.002+08:00

pop goes the weasel~ lol!!

ytd was my first day at moe!! long train ride to work ah! but the environment was okay! with vincent sitting beside, i wont feel bored or sianz la hahaha got ppl to crap with me i of cos happy la! glad to know some of the ppl here. they are quite funny ppl =)

ytd was so tiring.. went out with mr fang till almost midnight then home although was dead tired hahaha.. ended up taking a cab home la :x and stuffs to think thru as well mmhmm~!

later going out with dear for some shopping and makan dan staying over at her house.. next day, meet ting go shopping as well! dan staying over at her house with OVERNIGHT MAHJONG! yay yay! packed weekend! I cant wait for steamboat on Sunday with my relatives =) so looking forward for CNY..

gong xi gong xi~

lack of exercise

2009-01-21T14:07:00.002+08:00

alamaks this whole week lack of exercise! no chance to go jogging!! so lost!! today heading over to have dinner.. tml first day report to moe.. heard from vincent that might have lau yu sheng with client... friday after lau yu sheng at RCT gotta go out with dear.. then wont be home till sunday which is reunion dinner alr! dan new year alr! omg~! no need run le!!! must do back next wk... tsk tsk..

im so full

2009-01-20T23:13:00.003+08:00

just had gelare for "supper" wah lao.. so sinful.. very full now loh.. i wanna puke!! alr did my crunches! now wait for hair to dry dan i shall go ko le.

feb would be busy for me! set for programmes on 1st, 7th and 14th! yes! valentine's day! im celebrating with my darlings for once! yay!! its gonna be great =)

this week is really wierd ah.. it just started.. and i got snooked 3 times.. headache.. why u ppl like that.. argh!!

was angry ytd la! i so tired. i waited up till 12mn, planning to sing happy birthday to mr ALBERT SIOW! dan he never hear the phone ring loh! ANGRY! i thot he sleep at least not so bad END UP HE IS DRINKING! _|_ DAN! still dare to call back! i was alr sleeping and i don wan to hear his voice so i slient my phone! AND HE DONO WHAT IS GIVE UP! call another two more times and wake me up another two more times. SLIENT SLIENT! BISH!! at least he called this morning to apologise. =.= next year no more liao. i don wan stay up le! WASTE MY TIME T_T

i m so kancheong going MOE on thursday.. hope i can bring one of my new babies over :P

this week im also quite packed.. fri staying at dear's place.. sat staying at ting's place.. will try to find a new guy shirt and jeans for myself to wear when going shopping with ting on sat =) maybe i can scare some of my relatives on CNY with my butch style. WAHAHA!!

its monday!

2009-01-19T09:03:00.002+08:00

wow.. the sun must have risen from the west today la. lol.. im actually feeling kinda high.. must be luo's song! haha two of his fast beat songs played on my player then i was alighting the train! woohhaa~!

having my breakfast slowly now.. so lazy to chew. wonder how long i m gonna take eating it. hehe.. later gotta do my handover stuff alr.. oh.. going proj site on thurs! im so kancheong.. i guess later during lunch will be going to get my java bk from library to read thru..

had a fun day ytd. chris cleared TC4 with one credit =.= mad one!! dan we played this hammer hammer thingy. that one quite fun! but reaction too slow la har for me LOL!!

reached home close to 11 ytd. was on msn with someone and i discovered something quite shocking.. but he said it was alright.. i leave it at that.. i din mean to.. im sorry and i din know when and how it happened.. din ask much so we switched topic after he told me this 'secret'.

tonight i should be going to do my nails at gracies! been a while since i did my nails.. im on the spending spree ah! ytd i bought 3 tops for my brothers and daddy.. but i think ended up all only quan can wear! correction! is me and quan can wear! lol! i cut my hair ytd! like nv cut like that leh! i very sad! i wanted to change my style but that stylist say trim will be ok :/ nvm! still got next time! im gonna change my style again later tis yr.. long hair? NAH! not for now at least =)

dont say goodbye..

2009-01-18T08:41:00.002+08:00

xiah~ oh my darling!! AHH!!! *screams* LOL! damn high in the morning :x

ahhh~~!!

2009-01-17T21:48:00.002+08:00

this morning had a headache.. i think i had a bit too much.. i can feel myself getting a bit too high.. even da ma and baobei can sense it.. LOL.. well.. i guess i am reallynot that sober but definitely not drunk yet ya!! but i got parts and pieces of my memory chipped off.. but they all say i never do anything stupid la so.. don care la haha.. i think the da by jb, one sip of that gao gao mixture from sheri and last da with bernard did it. after the last da, my head is like wooo~ ko'ed!! LOL.. oh yea.. my eyes went watery when singing a emo song, baobei was like "why your eyes so wet de!" hahah!! sorry! i din mean for that to happen!

drank till around 2plus dan chris reached sunshine plaza to fetch me home. baobei chase me away T_T met up with chris ard 3plus? ended up he sent me and er ma home =P thanks so much =) so sorry you were so tired the next day..

i slept at ard 4plus close to 5 i think.. woke up at 8.. lie there toss and turned till 10 dan finally climb up and wash up.. helped mummy to go out and carry stuff!! twice! omg.. my arms.. dying..

had a talk with mummy.. im so shocked when she knows certain things that i have never told her! she knows i fell for another, she knows its him when she saw him, she knows almost like everything! i so love her man!! it made me guilty that i have been neglecting my family.. i gotta try and come home earlier more often and have dinner with them.. lucky cny coming le! gonna have a lot of quality time with them! love you mum! love you daddy! love my family!!

SJ I LOVE YOU!!!

2009-01-15T21:55:00.002+08:00

omg i love you so much la!! so cute!! DONGHAE OPPA EUNHYUK OPPA~!!!! :x

been a long time since my craziness over them surfaced~ OMG~!!!! AHHH! *SCREAMS*

Their Cuteness!!

Their Shuai-ness!! Ohh~~ *nose bleeds*

P.S: I love this!! Look at their coord when they dance. OMG~

friday tml~

2009-01-15T21:09:00.002+08:00

yay~ tml will be friday~!! and yes.. sorry but yea.. i going to come back home late.. haha.. friends' fren bday.. =)

zouk ytd was fun but i will never ever wear heels to go clubbing again!! damn pain man.. we reached ard 9pm. the queue was damn long!! but heng ting's friend know a regular there, so we were able to get in. cut q cut q hehe! went mambo till ard 1plus dan proceed to phuture~ mambo is damn cute oh. but kinda hard to follow the actions la. we just crazy ourselves there~ hehe.. and really, some guys are really so disgusting and idiotic and irritating!! i managed to punch and pinch one (on the stomach till he back off) cos he was touching my fren! and elbowed a few that is too near. its super crowded loh! phew!

reached home around 4plus. slept at 5plus.. woke up around 10 i think. lie on bed awhile dan see my hp.. woolala~ baobei they all at DTE~ so went to join them for makan before my appt.. =)

today's msn a bit quiet.. feel so empty~ lol! gonna slp early at approx 10plus if not later someone say i not enough sleep again :P

我不是你想像的那麽勇敢

2009-01-14T16:10:00.001+08:00

有时候太坚强笑容却填不满眼眶
越是想要隐藏歌声就唱的更响亮
直到入到心底最深处 OH~
你不要追问我还缺了些什麽
每个人都有梦幸福总站在最远方
心中越是渴望越是不敢伸手拥抱
谁的心是我最後一站
我强问我自己现在还没有个答案
我不是你想像那麽勇敢
多想让你保护能流泪一场
让我放下武装像个孩子一样
单纯的把爱情放在你心上
每个人都有梦幸福总站在最远方
心中越是渴望越是不敢伸手拥抱
谁的心是我最後一站
我强问我自己现在还没有个答案
我不是你想像那麽勇敢
多想让你保护能流泪一场
让我放下武装像个孩子一样
单纯的把爱情放在你心上
我不是你想像总是扮演坚强
多想让你知道我也要个伴
放下讨厌武装像个孩子一样
单纯的把爱情放在你心上
我不是你想像的那麽勇敢

wtf

2009-01-14T10:40:00.002+08:00

it just puzzle me how can someone be so fucking insensitive?

did u even think i might have saw that?

did u even think i might be hurt?

did u even think? well.. i guess not since im not that impt like u first said at all?

argh!!

*sorry for venting, i need to release*

am i too much?

2009-01-14T09:08:00.002+08:00

haiz.. daddy spoke to me on sunday when i was home at 9am..

dad: ting ah.. why nowadays you always go out till so hate?
me: huh.. no la.. weekend only ma..
dad: every weekend loh.. you know daddy and mummy worry a not?
me: i know la.. i nv do stupid things la okie?
dad: try to be home la hoh.. don always go out till so late can? you got bf har?
me: no la.. your dotter is single la..
dad: hmm hao loh.. don keep go club pub lounge ah! be careful
me: orh.. okie loh.. *hugs & muacks*

dan~ this morning i called mummy to tell her i will be home late tonight..

me: ma.. i going out tonight. not so early come back. don lock door okie?
ma: again? why everyday so late come home?
me: i got things on mah..
ma: aiyo. even ah yi is worrying abt you! that day fri she come mahjong till so late also ask where is ah ting. you know a not?
me: har? aiya.. i will take care of myself one la.. this month more busy only..
ma: not know take care a not. u know our here come back late very dangerous a not?
me: i know.. if late, mostly got ppl see me home de..
ma: not say if ppl got see u home a not.. just try not to keep going out so late can? u must know we worry abt you de leh..
me: orh ok ok i try i try okay?

liews.. double 100% chokeslam + snooked combo..

conclusion - ok its time to try and be guai.. after my commitments :/

ahh...

2009-01-14T06:58:00.002+08:00

why am i up so early? mr angela smsed me.. dono whats wrong with him.. always getting drunk nowadays.. ask him also don wan say.. tsk.. and if you are reading, _|_! promise to drink less and smoke less right? don break promises right? then what is this har? its your health if you don wan to take care of it.. ur choice.. told you got prob can talk to me liao, you ownself mai gong.. dono you ah..i try to ask liao loh.. tsk!!!

tonight gonna go zouk for a girls night out. =) finally get to go zouk! what should i wear? manly? girly? hmm~

tml took leave so i could go and get my knee checked after the stupid bike accident last year *like very long actually just few months LOL* doubt anything is wrong with it la.. im still walking and jumping and dancing? haha..

shall blog again when i back tonight or sth.. cheers loves~

la la la~

2009-01-13T19:05:00.002+08:00

finally got sufficient sleep last night!!

for 2 days str8 im home early. before 7pm! hehe although i did head out after that, it is exercise okay! hehe..

not sure how come become such a exercise freak.. i guess my wires really went sot after some major changes in my life.. but exercising is good so~ why not ^^

gonna change my exercise routine a bit.. xiaodi says 150 crunches are too much as i will be training my abomen muscles.. which then my tummy will not be flat, which is what i aimed! so! he teached me to do the bridge. so gotta change my routine le. hehe..

now rotting a bit before i go out for my yoga class.. i shall bring my stuff to shower then so come home, msn awhile and i shall KO for the day~!

礼物

2009-01-13T10:08:00.001+08:00

女人都渴望归属
可是热情怎样保持温度
眼泪是快乐的附属
却又让我驯服
终于一天看清楚
能够爱过痛过也算幸福
这一路的旅途风光明媚
还是绝路
都是昨天笑忘书
每个人都有一份礼物
就是为另外一个人付出
没经历过挥之不去的痛苦
不懂珍惜手中的礼物
每个熟悉的哀乐喜怒
藏在心里最温暖的深处
王子公主谁能逃得过痛苦
能够勇敢爱下去是最好的礼物
终于一天看清楚
能够爱过痛过也算幸福
这一路的旅途风光明媚
还是绝路
都是昨天笑忘书
每个人都有一份礼物
就是为另外一个人付出
没经历过挥之不去的痛苦
不懂珍惜手中的礼物
每个熟悉的哀乐喜怒
藏在心里最温暖的深处
王子公主谁能逃得过痛苦
能够勇敢爱下去是最好的礼物
每个熟悉的哀乐喜怒
藏在心里最温暖的深处
王子公主谁能逃得过痛苦
能够勇敢爱下去是最好的礼物
今天我已经领悟
今天就是礼物

brain toasted

2009-01-13T09:02:00.002+08:00

slept kinda earli last night! 10plus! but still tired.. mentally drained. dono why! argh! but not that sleep ah.. hehe..

had a great jog ytd! the breeze was great! but super tiring ah.. lol when i reach my end point at the traffic light, i was like leaning on the light post, light headed like gonna faint like that lol! but i din of cos :x after the traffic light slowly walk home.. dan chiong up the stairs.. and end of exercise session!

dan ting sms me said that yoga this wk would be on tues.. other days cannot le.. no choice.. if i knew, i wont go run le T_T dog bless me later? lol! got a feeling we will be talking abt some issues tonight.. hehe.. lets see how it goes.

just ate breakfast! so full! i love me tea :x

I WAN I WAN!

2009-01-12T10:11:00.003+08:00

so many things i wanna do/ eat/ wish!

- yumcha egg tarts
- durians
- mr teh tarik's ice milk tea
- ktv
- mahjong
- curry chicken
- hair cut
- new clothes!~ :x
- swimming in the rain
- jogging in the rain
- cycling in the rain
- going beach in the rain
- RAIN! *prays for rain tonight so i can go walk walk*

sunday again!?

2009-01-11T14:36:00.003+08:00

yawns! tired! lol..

reached home at around 9plus this morning.. slept ard 10plus.. 3 hrs later and im up! later still going newton to mum mum with the RU gang.. shagged! i hope i don sleep hahah! later ppl gonna call me kun shin again! should be wearing my specs as well ba.. lazy.. i don even feel like moving my butt to shower sia!!

ytd had a great time! went to red cliff movie marathon with chris! wah lao red cliff is damn the nice la!! my gan xing~ aww!!! the guy acting as zhao yun is pretty gd at fighting!! and zhang fei is so cute la!! LOL!! we watched from 9pm till like 2 to 3am ba. dan we stroll till my office to get my charger! which i left in the office! BLUR ME! ARGH!!

after that took a cab to ECP, which we reach abt 3-4am ba. mr chris went to eat CARL JUNIOR FOR HIS SUPPER! yes fast food! TSK! lol. dan we proceed to the beach~! we both super shag ah.. sit on the chair, set alarm and KO'ed! LOL bodyache after waking up at 6.30. and waited for the sunrise!

and..

ECP GOT NO SUNRISE!! CHEAT MY FEELINGS!! Hahaha! Couldn't see the orange sun rising.. But the dawn break was amazing. So pretty! Breeze was cool as well! damn nice~ Sayang no rain la :x Now i know if i wan see sunrise, i shall stick to PRP. Maybe i should go changi and try see got sunrise not too~ Woohoo! Fun!

After rotting a bit at the beach watching the boat, sky and stuff.. we went for breakfast at Mac~ then took a cab back home..

dog bless me tonight i don sleep at the dinner! lol i shall survive!!

morning~

2009-01-10T12:03:00.002+08:00

wahhhh woke at 11plus i wan to slp!! but mummy need to vaccum the room.. sobs!!

thinking if i should wear my specs out later. lol! sure kena say by baobei why wear out and scare ppl de T_T but if going stay up for long hours, i guess better not to wear contact lens ba!

later go and get ready le! i shall go without bag today!! hhahaha free hands :x

nth much to blog now! blog more when im more alive!

busy weekend!

2009-01-10T03:07:00.002+08:00

woo! i just reached home, bathed and did some crunches and situps. din do my daily 150 though.. kinda late and tired. so only did 50 and 30 respectively.

had co event today. it was kinda fun preparing for the stuff although its kinda last min. quite enjoyable though! but the event dragged for some time.. so i din have time to eat the buffet then i gotta go as my movie is starting soon. oh yea! i feel so guilty for indirectly sabo-ing guohua!! hahaa i just grabbed him when i saw him to take the photo and he got selected to go up stage for catwalk! haha! i din know the candidates will need to walk the catwalk de oh! im innocent! but he did pretty good! and he won! yay! so proud of him!! ^^

after the co event, went to meet chris for ponyo movie. it was really nice! im a sucker for cute things la wah lao the boy and the fish is so damn cute. story is not bad although a bit fantasy la.. but thats what animations are for right? i gotta catch howl's moving castle someday when im free! after the movie, went to the arcade and went to meet luny for beancurd. now i know where is the nice beancurd i heard someone say before le!! hehe!

after eating, luny drove us to loyang temple to pray pray bai bai~ after that fetched me home. thank you so much boy =)

now i shall wait for my hair to dry before i ko! i want to slp late late tml! no 12 i don wan wake up! hehe! meeting baobei, kim, qi and chris for minds cafe at mid-noon! after tat would be catching red cliff movie marathon! gonna be a fun wkend! i don think i will be home tml to blog hmm~ only be home on sunday morning i guess! and sunday evening for farewell dinner + mahjong(pending) for our beloved gui who is going back to japan soon! T_T we will miss ya!

so.. dog bless me on monday!! lol!! im gonna be super shagged.

i miss you

2009-01-09T13:24:00.001+08:00

Sha-la-la-la-la, sha-la-la-la-la
You used to call me your angel
Said I was sent straight down from heaven
You'd hold me close in your arms

I loved the way you felt so strong
I never wanted you to leave
I wanted you to stay here holding me

I miss you
I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear
Every once in a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here somehow
My heart won't let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you, sha la la la la
I miss you

You used to call me your dreamer
And now I'm living out my dream
Oh how I wish you could see
Everything that's happening for me
I'm thinking back on the past
It's true that time is flying by too fast

I know you're in a better place, yeah
But I wish that I could see your face, oh
I know you're where you need to be
Even though it's not here with me

终于说出口

2009-01-09T13:23:00.001+08:00

你终于说出口
其实你早就已经不爱我
为什么要低著头
你知道这玩笑骗不倒我
可是这不是玩笑
是要逃避你离开我的理由
我还能做什么你已经不爱我
我一直都爱著你难道这还不够
我还要做什么你才不离开我
我知道你已无心再继续看著我
一心想离开我
我终于也说出口
其实很爱你但从没认真说过
或许是我的错
多在乎你却只放在心中
不要问我为什么
因为爱你这就是我的理由
我还能做什么你已经不爱我
我一直都爱著你难道这还不够
我还要做什么你才不离开我
我知道你已无心再继续看著我
没什么需要被原谅
我笑得有些牵强
你知道我总是能够假装不难过
oh 不想看你那么累
多希望再给我机会
颤抖著我的手
握住的只是风
还能做什么你已经不爱我
我一直都爱著你难道这还不够
我还要做什么你才不离开我
我知道你已无心再继续看著我
一心想离开我

唯一的唯一

2009-01-09T13:16:00.000+08:00

一样自己走在回家的路
却突然发现自己有些孤独
天空下有几颗脆弱的心
找寻着那双共鸣的眼睛
我怀疑一直在等待的人真的就是你
直到看着星星想到你望着太阳想到你
少了你会莫名的空虚
我才终于开始去相信是谁出现在梦里
而你就是唯一的唯一
直到看到电视想到你望着大海想到你
少了你我呼吸没力气
最后确定我已爱上你想抱紧你在怀里
让我们的眼神永远坚定不移

tgif

2009-01-09T09:08:00.003+08:00

yay! its friday!!

got a hard time leaving my bed today! din have the time to make up!! haiz have to bring my make up bag to office.. later after breakfast then i go and make up liao. hhaha. saw guohua when i was buying breakfast today. kinda qiao =)

tonight would be having a community event at smu till around 9pm? after that will head back to office to get my stuff and head over for some drinks.. yes! alone! lol!

prob going for a movie after my drinks and music at the lounge. ^^

how can i not love you

2009-01-09T09:05:00.000+08:00

Cannot touch..
Cannot hold..
Cannot be together..
Cannot love..
Cannot kiss..
Cannot love each other..

Must be strong and we must let go
Cannot say what our hearts must know

How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here in my arms
How does one walks away
From all of the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone

Cannot trip..
Cannot share sweet and tender moments..
Cannot feel how we feel..
Must pretend it's over
Must be brave and we must go on
Must not say..
Wat we no longer long

How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here in my arms
How does one walks away
From all of the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone

How can I not love you

Must be brave and we must be strong
Cannot say what we no longer long

How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here in my arms
How does one walks away
From all of the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone

How can I not love you
When you are gone

another song i heard on the train today.. love the lyrics =)

最熟悉的陌生人

2009-01-08T17:11:00.001+08:00

还记得吗
窗外那被月光染亮的海洋
你还记得吗
是爱让彼此把夜点亮
为何后来我们用沉默取代依赖
曾经朗朗星空
渐渐阴霾
心碎离开
转身回到最初荒凉里等待
为了寂寞
是否找个人填心中空白
我们变成了世上
最熟悉的陌生人
今后各自曲折
各自悲哀
只怪我们爱得那么汹涌
爱得那么深
于是梦醒了搁浅了沉默了挥手了
却回不了神
如果当初在交会时能忍住了
激动的灵魂
也许今夜我不会让自己在思念里
沉沦
心碎离开
转身回到最初荒凉里等待
为了寂寞
是否找个人填心中空白
我们变成了世上最熟悉的陌生人
今后各自曲折
各自悲哀
只怪我们爱得那么汹涌
爱得那么深
于是梦醒了搁浅了沉默了挥手了
却回不了神
如果当初在交会时能忍住了
激动的灵魂
也许今夜我不会让自己在思念里
沉沦

whenever this song plays, my heart feels it.. it aches..

从开始到现在

2009-01-08T09:33:00.000+08:00

如果這是最好的結局
為何我還忘不了你
時間改變了我們告別了單純
如果重逢也無法繼續
失去才算是永恆
懲罰我的認真是我太過天真
難道我就這樣過我的一生
我的吻註定吻不到最愛的人
為你等從一開始盼到現在
也同樣落的不可能
難道愛情可以轉交給別人
但命運註定留不住我愛的人
我不能我怎麼會願意承認
你是我不該愛的人
如果再見是為了再分
失去才算是永恆
已死心的記憶為何還要再生
難道我就這樣過我的一生
我的吻註定吻不到最愛的人
為你等從一開始盼到現在
也同樣落的不可能
難道愛情可以轉交給別人
但命運註定留不住我愛的人
我不能我怎麼會願意承認
你是我不該愛的人
拿什麼作證　從未想過愛一個人
需要那麼殘忍才證明愛的深
難道我就這樣過我的一生
我的吻註定吻不到最愛的人
為你等從一開始盼到現在
也同樣落的不可能
難道愛情可以轉交給別人
但命運註定留不住我愛的人
我不能我怎麼會願意承認
你是我愛錯了的人

from the heart

2009-01-07T13:32:00.003+08:00

i recall the time, you said i am yours..
i recall the time, you said you love me..
i recall the time, you said you want me..
i recall the time, you said you can't do without me..

i want to call out to you..
i want to scream out to you..
that i really really love you..
that im sure of.

regrets.. not leaving him sooner..
regrets.. not realising your feelings earlier..
regrets.. our paths have long crossed..
regrets.. its too late to go back..

the heart yearns..
the heart feels..
the heart knows the pain and hurt..
but yet the heart will never forgets you..

without you, my nights seems so long..
every moment i open my eyes, your image just comes into my mind..
i imagine your presence, every moment i lay my eyes on something that triggers my memory of you..
you were there, you were real.. you were just there.. holding on to my hand..
pulling me into your arms.. hugging me so tight.. and telling me.. you love me..

without you, my days seems so long..
every moment someone mentions your name, my heart skipped a beat..
i imagine your presence, with my every breathe.. missing you.. every moment, every second..
you were there, you were real.. it is not a dream.. it is not a illusion..

reality has it.. i have to face it.. what we had together.. has hence stopped.
memories are so sweet, yet so hurtful..
how do one forget? how do one forgive? how do one just let go?
feeling broken, held on to a strong front, smile when it hurts so bad..

i know i am never alone with all my great friends by my side..
but an emptiness in the heart will never be filled, till the day i finally get over you..
i promised to try.. i promised to leave.. i promised to be happy..
so just when will it be?

if only we can go back in time..
if only i know my feelings earlier..
if only i truly know love..
if only i knew our heart..
if only we loved earlier..
if only we touched each other's life earlier..
if only.. if only..

the memories are engraved to my mind, my heart, my soul..
i will never forget.. thank you for leaving your footprint on my sands of my life..
even if its hurtful, you taught me one of the best lessons in life, that love can be so..

sour'ed legs

2009-01-06T23:03:00.002+08:00

im suffering from a cough, phelgm, aching legs, aching back, aching arms and sore feet!! omg! i feel terrible la lol!!

i still kena forced to walk home and climb stairs by baobei! im so sad! she so evil :x LOL! ok la! i know you wanna push me on don wan me give up on resolution! ok loh.. wei wo hao! i know de. hehe. next time we try the sports marathon together and then see how it goes okay? muahahha!

we watched bedtime story tgt~ it was pretty good! worth a watch! kim and her fren was in the same threatre with us~ hehe we went for some arcade hoops after the movie and took a walk home~

meh2 cant go for minds cafe le.. sadden.. her work is on sat not sun.. i thot would be able to hang out tgt again... T_T

i gotta paint my legs with yoko yoko later.. hope it gets better tml~ maybe i shall rest for the night tml? LOL!

the power of love

2009-01-06T15:17:00.002+08:00

the whispers in the morning
of lovers sleeping tight
are rolling like thunder
now as i look in your eyes

i hold on to your body
and feel each move you make
your voice is warm and tender
a love that i could not forsake

'coz i am your lady
and you are my man
whenever you reach for me
i'll do all that i can

lost is how i'm feeling lying in your arms
when the world outside's too
much to take
that all ends when i'm with you

even though there may be times
it seems i'm far away
(but) never wonder where i am
'coz i am always by your side

we're heading for something
somewhere i've never been
sometimes i am frightened
but i'm ready to learn
('bout) of the power of love

the power of love
the sound of your heart beating made it clear
suddenly the feeling that i can't go on
is light years away

heard this song before i started my run back home from the condo.. brought tears to my eyes.. but still, if such a power exist, when will it be mine?

finalised new year resolution!

2009-01-06T09:34:00.001+08:00

1. saved and gone for an overseas trip to taiwan as promised to dear.
2. pay back all my debts~ (exclude gym as it is pending of 2 yrs).
3. get over him.
4. get a new pc.
5. be healthy.. pretty sicky since i got emo'ed.
6. lose 2 kg and maintain.
7. flat tummy and V.
8. be able to 摸牌.
9. train my arm muscles.
10. get a naval piercing? *pending*
11. get a stable career.
12. plan on which degree to take.

total drainage!

2009-01-05T21:40:00.004+08:00

woo!! totally shag today!!

after work, i went home to pack for my exercise plans..

i went for:
- a swim (4 laps) *i wanted to swim more but the pool only have me. then i scared la >.<
- a jog (from elias green to my house) *got walk in between la.. for one traffic light distance*
- climbing stairs (to the 5th storey) *damn tired this one! i think i took 1min plus*
- took a nice long shower - 120 crunches *i wanted to do 150 but i can feel my stomach cramping so i stopped at 120*
- 30 situps *to make up the 30 crunches.. easier to do mah >.<*
- 20 leglifts *as promised to ade*

and i KO'ed. lol! tired la omg!! i will NOT go for swimming dan jogging again. maybe i shall try cycling and swimming as a combo. easier la! jogging with a bag very gan kor..

oops! i forgot to eat med again! shall go and eat now before someone nags me :x

ciaos for today~!

爱我的人和我爱的人

2009-01-05T18:55:00.001+08:00

盼不到我爱的人

我知道我愿意再等

疼不了爱我的人

片刻柔情它骗不了人

我不是无情的人

却将你伤的最深

我不忍我不能

别再认真

忘了我的人

离不开我爱的人

我知道爱需要缘分

放不下爱我的人

因为了解他多么认真

为什么最真的心

碰不到最好的人

我不问我不能

拥在怀中

直到他变冷

爱我的人对我痴心不悔

我却为我爱的人甘心一生伤悲

在乎的人始终不对

谁对谁不必虚伪

爱我的人为我付出一切

我却为我爱的人流泪狂乱心碎

爱与被爱同样受罪

为什么不懂拒绝痴情的包围

盼不到我爱的人

我知道我愿意再等

疼不了爱我的人

片刻柔情它骗不了人

我不是无情的人

却将你伤的最深

我不忍我不能

别再认真

忘了我的人

爱我的人对我痴心不悔

我却为我爱的人甘心一生伤悲

在乎的人始终不对

谁对谁不必虚伪

爱我的人为我付出一切

我却为我爱的人流泪狂乱心碎

爱与被爱同样受罪

为什么不懂拒绝痴情的包围

爱我的人对我痴心不悔

我却为我爱的人甘心一生伤悲

在乎的人始终不对

谁对谁不必虚伪

爱我的人为我付出一切

我却为我爱的人流泪狂乱心碎

爱与被爱同样受罪

为什么不懂拒绝痴情的包围

where is the rain?

2009-01-05T11:56:00.002+08:00

i miss the feeling of walking in the rain, feeling so free, so cool, so cleansed, so relaxed..

have been like 3 weeks or more ever since i walked in the rain.. i wish for a heavy downpour like that day in Nov.. the downpour drenched me within 5 seconds. like wow, i feel so cleansed! it felt as if it washed away my sins, my guilt, my blood and everything..

i gotta hunt for another spot to sit in the rain haha! somewhere decreet and no one can see me wahaha! wish me luck in hunting my new secret spot. =)

煎熬

2009-01-05T11:04:00.002+08:00

刚好我们拥有彼此寻找的好
可惜不太凑巧在错的时候情路上遇到

若不是不忍心看你两难中煎熬
不然我决不肯这样眼睁睁看你重回她怀抱

嘴角勉强撑起了笑也要让你看到最后一丝的骄傲
因为你说说到做到提得起放得下才有男人的味道

我不是不知道没有你的日子会有多么煎熬
就算是我傻得可笑失去当成得到
只要能够对你好我都会做到

若不是不忍心看你两难中煎熬
不然我决不肯这样眼睁睁看你重回她怀抱

嘴角勉强撑起了笑也要让你看到最后一丝的骄傲
因为你说说到做到提得起放得下才有男人的味道

我不是不知道没有你的日子会有多么煎熬
就算是我傻得可笑
失去当成得到只要能够对你好我都会做到

你是否懂我的感受
说走却舍不得掉头
我不该爱得太绝
让你我如此难过
为何我爱的一切没有结果

嘴角勉强撑起了笑也要让你看到最后一丝的骄傲
因为你说说到做到提得起放得下才有男人的味道
我不是不知道没有你的日子会有多么煎熬
就算是我傻得可笑失去当成得到
只要能够对你好我都会做到

tml is monday again~! >.<

2009-01-04T21:48:00.002+08:00

ahh monday blues!! why must the weekend past so fast!! hate it!!

officially my feet is ko'ed hahha! i took 90 min walking home from ting's place. i really took my own sweet time eh? walked from 11.30 to 1pm sia! damn hot weather! i was listening to the FM.. it said it will rain. but it din! i was so sad.. after i reached my blk, i ran up the stairs within 30 sec! woo! shiok but i was damn tired la LOL!

why did i walked hm? hmm.. yea you guessed it! emo'ed! haha but it wasn't a big case one la.. so many ppl ard at that timing!

two conseq days of zoo and mahjong are physically and mentally straining sia! my brain feels dead, my body feel aches, my legs feel nothing!! so i spent sunday resting at hm. now feeling a bit feverish, cough is still there, throat got phelgm and always having nose blocks at night! ARGH!

well.. i going to sleep soon, med is working its effect on me! hope i get well tml!

突然好想你

2009-01-04T14:48:00.002+08:00

最怕空气突然安静
最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚
绞痛着不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息

想念如果会有声音
不愿那是悲伤的哭泣
事到如今
终於让自已属於我自已
只剩眼泪还骗不过自己

突然好想你
你会在哪里
过的快乐或委屈
突然好想你
突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛

我们像一首最美丽的歌曲
变成两部悲伤的电影
为什麽你带我走过最难忘的旅行
然後留下最痛的纪念品

我们那麽甜那麽美
那麽相信那麽疯那麽热烈的曾经
为何我们还是要奔向各自的幸福
和遗憾中老去

突然好想你
你会在哪里
过的快乐或委屈
突然好想你
突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛

最怕空气突然安静
最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚
绞痛着不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息
最怕此生已经决定自己过
没有你却又突然
听到你的消息

手

2009-01-03T20:38:00.001+08:00

那是你的手,
曾经轻轻安抚我眉头
当夜是他甩开了我的手
泻了气的气球,两颗心在委缩的温柔
你始终着低着头,紧握你拳头
透过这窗口,有人会猜我们是朋友
最普通的朋友,甚至不点头
在记忆的上游,那是什么揪着我心头
是不是你那双我熟悉的手..

那抱过你的手,还能放在谁背后
你想过没有,我们为何会牵手
是什么理由,然后没有然后
甚至不再挥挥手

那是你的手,曾经把我捧在你胸口
但今天以后他不会再敲我门口
有一股腥红的哀愁,缓缓的流出卡住我喉头
你远远的抱着手只站在外头
那抱过你的手,还能放在谁背后

你想过没有,我们上一次牵手
是什么时候,然后没有然后
甚至不再挥挥手抱过你的手,还能放在谁背后
是什么时候,我们上一次牵手
但抱过你以后,有什么已被陌生
你想过没有,我们彼此牵手是什么借口
然后没有然后
甚至不再挥挥手
分手也不需要现由

It relates... - SheRz

friday!!

2009-01-02T10:09:00.002+08:00

tgif!! and im on half day leave! yay!! going to the zoo later with baobei, dh, angela and xiaodi. meh2 and kim not joining us.. so sad.. not sure if at night going where not~! pending! hehe.

tml im going to the zoo AGAIN with the RUonline gang. And dear say maybe she not going T_T. she say i cfm need to go then she might not go. so sad sia.. They are still planning after zoo activities~ I gotta leave at 10plus though. going overnight mahjong at ting's house and count down to her bday!!

ytd after yoga, me and ade finally told ting abt what we kept from her. she was so shocked la.. kena nagged and fierced >.< so scary! but now that we told her le, we felt better.. now they finally understand why it is still taking me so long to let go. =) im so glad to have them both as my jiemei. really loves them a lot~

i guess my nxt rest day should be sunday again at ting house! i must really rest one day per wk sia.. if not i will get sick again.. :x

happy new year

2009-01-01T16:31:00.003+08:00

welcome 2009!! woo!!

i enjoyed myself at the buffet, countdown and mahjong!! eat till damn full la. thanks mummy for the treat at buffet! hehee! we went holland v to countdown after that, ray and mummy don believe i cannot drink loh! sobs. lucky my reaction fast! pour into their glass and ta with my drips~ lol! i was damn red that night loh!!!after that, we went for mahjong! wah we played til 6plus dan we left xdj's house.. so shagged till i za hu sia! LOL. i was on the winning hand, eating up all the roosters! until my fellow tigeress joined the game for ben. dan lose lose le! and i fed ray wang zi 5 tais loh!! hahaha i keep saying abt it during the whole day hehehe!

after the game wanted to take cab home de.. but wth.. no cab loh.. end up i walk till the main road and saw there is actually bus to my house. so i waited for the bus and took it home. on the way home, din know what came over me, i just started to tear, listening to songs on my mp4. i guess its the memories we had in the bus.. and some other stuff. thought of the things he once said to me, heart began to hurt.. and yea.. i din get to wait till after thurs dan emo'ed. damn weak ah..

but like all of them say! next yr will be a better year. lets go make it a better year okie! i will try my best to do all my nyr!!

new year resolution

2008-12-30T21:37:00.005+08:00

by the end of 2009:

1. saved and gone for an overseas trip to taiwan as promised to dear.
2. pay back all my debts~ (exclude gym as it is pending of 2 yrs).
3. get over him.
4. get a new pc.
5. be healthy.. pretty sicky since i got emo'ed.
6. lose 2 kg and maintain.
7. flat tummy and V.
8. be able to 摸牌.
9. train my arm muscles.
10. get a naval piercing? *pending*

sick..

2008-12-30T07:21:00.002+08:00

my throat is killing me!! oh no!! i don wanna be sick for the countdown!! later gonna see the doc and have plenty of water. ARGH!

din emo'ed ytd! din have time to as well.. was helping ade with her site till ard 10plus and then we took the train back.. when we were on the way back, we had a chat which we both revealed something that we din know how to tell each other.. so shocking for the both of us.. its good that we tell each other now alr but now we gotta think how can we tell it to ting.. >.< i think sure kena scolding from her de.. but after we have told each other our secrets, we had a heart to heart talk.. i felt slightly better after talking to her, revealing some of my darkest feelings. and she understood.. so i guess thats why i din emo as well..

i think i will try not to be emo till maybe thursday? lol.. see when i cannot take it anymore~* hehe..

lesson learnt

2008-12-29T15:36:00.001+08:00

what is the use of thinking for others? when you have to suffer yourself in the depths of hurt and pain.

selfishness is actually a way to protect yourself.

i guess i should learn to be selfish too.

blues

2008-12-29T09:23:00.001+08:00

monday blues..~*

currently listening to xiao jing teng's blues as well..

blue blue blue~

i guess tonight might be a emo night! :x

its sunday alr!! >.<

2008-12-28T22:07:00.002+08:00

time flew la!! omg.. its already sunday night!!

had great fun at the beach yesterday! the breeze, sun, beach, clouds, stars are so wonderful!! stayed from 4plus 5 till around 9pm! dan we went to neBo to play the basketball game. Heheh! we went to the arcade till like almost 12mn before me and baobei walked home from DTE. baobei accompanied me walked from DTE to my house dan she walked back hm! i think she took like an hour loh! took her own sweet time sia!

we took total of 230 photos!! LoL! power leh!! and i hit 1200 photos in Facebook! Yay! Fulfilled my new year resolution!

just did 125 crunches with Chris over the msn. wah lao can die la.. tml still have to chiong 150 crunches with him. god bless me please! LOL!

feeling blues.. tml is monday le.. work work work.. >.<'' i decided to cut down on my expenses this month. already damn leongs.. i need determination! I CAN DO IT! HELP ME GUYS!!

他没有错

2008-12-28T02:35:00.002+08:00

就这样放了彼此的手
究竟是尽头还是个出口
只是我还记得
他每一次抚摸
只是我还熟悉
他每一个轮廓
不知道从此要难过多久
我相信一定和孤独一样久
原来天长地久是形容一种痛
这样的有始有终换来怎样的海阔天空
他没有错只是没有爱我很久
他没有错是我飞蛾扑火
我求一个经过不妄想一个结果
他没有错他没有错
只是没有为我停留他没有错
是爱的不是时候他没有错
只是没有陪我到最后没有陪我到最后

i heard this song when i was on my way to meet baobei and dh.. find it relating.. but i promised i wont emo today.. so i shall just post this lyrics here and rest for the day.. post abt our picnic outing tml!

dance dance~!

2008-12-27T11:56:00.003+08:00

woo!! ytd counted as my first time going clubbing! was great fun!! kim's fren wilson wasnt feeling great so jio'ed kim to go. kim asked me~ and we asked baobei!

before meeting them for clubbing, went to old airport road to eat! some of the food we got is really nice! but the longest queue char kway teow wasn't good AT ALL! so disappointing loh.. we walked such a long way to head there >.< yea! we got lost.. well~! my 1st time taking bus there ma! must forgive me hahah!! after dinner, we took a cab back to my hse to pack rhea's bag and i got changed to meet baobei and kim at whitesands to head down to st james.

met kim's fren wilson at the entrance of dragonfly. outside we listen they singing 千年之恋! quite happy! but once we go in, TMD! the songs all so cheena like chinese new year.. so we head over to powerhouse.. since kims another group of friends are there.

dance like mad! i sweat like fark! lol my shirt was completely damp man! i was actually wearing my butch wear ytd. but after dancing so hot, i transformed my butch shirt to a half top. LOL! in an instant i became a girl again! was dirty dancing with all the girls in the gang. fun~!! touching everywhere hahah!! partied till ard 3plus dan slowly made our way home le. which is actually quite early! normally we stayed till closing de. hehe but wilson gotta work next day n most of us is quite tired. so headed hm.

reached home around 4am.. showered.. facebooked.. msned~ slept at 5plus.. AND WOKE at 10plus! OMG!! i feel tired... I wanna sleep! might go and nap soon~!

later meeting DH and baobei for picnic and kite flying! yay!! i think i will KO on the beach. I hope I will stay dry later hahha!

shall stop for now.. my mind cannot think le! LOL! ciaos~

Blind by Lifehouse

2008-12-26T11:59:00.002+08:00

I just realised the lyrics of this song is so meaningful.. though i had this song for ages..

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
And still I have the pain
I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like it was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

merry xmas

2008-12-25T14:49:00.003+08:00

hey guys! a merry christmas to all!!

i guess ytd can be considered my first time actually "celebrating" xmas! reached hm almost 6am in the morning! totally shag-a-tonic! lol now having headache omg! old liao cannot take late nights lol.. probably gonna go back ko soon.

had a lovely night! after xmas luncoh at office, i went shopping with dear and xdj~! after that we decided to go tcc to rest our aching legs.. then we saw feb, tai and keith there! so qiao right! so we sat there and talked cock till leon came.. and we head off for steamboat! the couple ben and minko only joined us at the steamboat~

steamboat was nice. i became the prawn peeler. :x LOL! finally get to see our da wei wang daddy tai de makan skills. really can eat man! i guess im the female da wei wang there ba. the girls aren't eating much! after we finish steamboat, we went to ah chooi for dessert! power right! the honeydew sago was nice~! can try oh!

thats when i recieved chris sms i think.. jio me go k leh! wahhahah! free ktv!! why not!! after dessert i followed the gang to asylum where they got some drinks. din join them for long, dan chris was here to pick me up. so we went for k!

when we reached the ktv place, was alr 12plus and stil gotta wait for a room!! happening place la. first and last time im going there! the toilet damn dirty loh.. and got those idiotic drunk men =.= and i even saw a lady peeing without closing the door! omg.. but i sang quite a lot haha chris' buds are pretty friendly! and such a coincidence one of his friends is actually my brother's senior in the army! cool eh! reached home close to 6! Ko'ed at 6plus hehe..

Woke up at 9.30.. and force myself to sleep again till around 1pm. washed up, had breakfast. talk a bit on msn. went back to nap. fetched rhea from the mrt at 5plus! before that i saw baobei and DH! haha and i confisicated baobei's ciggie and lighter!! :x right now she should be enjoying drinks with alan ba! that alan better don smoke also.. =.=''

just went for dinner with bro toots by the beach! had a great time talking about matters of the heart and some crap. the screaming was farking awesome dude! but please! don do it again! LOL!!

finally im home now waiting for rhea and jas to let them in before i can KO completely.. sadden i got work tml..

i doubt i will have strength to go havoc tml.. >.<''

xmas eve!

2008-12-24T09:22:00.003+08:00

ooopss.. i din post ytd! was too tired hahha!! KOed at around 12mn.

had a wonderful night with baobei and kim. camwhored quite a bit i think. LOL!

we waited for kim till 6.30pm before we left work. ended up kim waited for both of us at the MRT. after that we went to bedko 85 to mum mum! had fried oyster, chicken wings, otah, bak chor mee and tang yuan! so full!

after that we took a cab to whitesands.. we went to the arcade and played the bball game! baobei so li hai! me and kim jiu... haiz.. LOL!! dan we tried this new jap game.. pressing of 16 buttons disco tapping thing. its quite fun leh!! we will go and try again!! LOL!!

time flew! before we know it, it was already 10pm then the arcade is closing. SUPER SAD! before we left the building, we took some funny pics with trees, signs and stuff :x

we decided to walk home from whitesands. baobei say will walk with us till my house then she take the bus back. so we began walking, as usual, we started singing. dan the below happened:

sherz: 'oi, u two sing one duet leh. i record vid!'
baobei: 'sing what?'
kim: 'i dono what to sing leh..'
sherz: 'sing 你最珍贵 loh! nice leh that song'
baobei: 'i cannot sing that one la. i cannot reach'
kim: 'hmmm'
baobei: 'that time ah! dono with which 王八蛋 sing with me. cmi!'
kim: 'ME LAH!'

They look at each other for one spilt second and..
*immediate laughter*

LOL!! damn funny la! i recorded them laughing.. kim will post up the video soon ^^ we are stuck there laughing like a whole 4-5min!!

i reached home almost at 11pm.. showered and all, settle down and use my pc to upload ade's website.. dan finally koed.

such a good weather today, sleepy leh!! zz!

later going for the Xmas lunch party~! After that shopping with dear and xdj, then meet up with the RUOnline gang for steamboat(?) at bugis! After that go dear's house to overnight~ Yay~ So long never go her place alr!

I promised myself I will not be emo this week at least till Sat! Jiayous with me okie?!

sth interesting! me! the fire tiger!
Fire-Tiger: 1926, 1986
Is independent, charismatic, flamboyant and restless.
Loves fun, non stop action and freedom.
Tend to take things too personal but have short memories.
Good to have around as a friend especially during turbulent times.

meaningful quotes

2008-12-23T18:04:00.001+08:00

while waiting for baobei and kim to reach, i found the following quotes that really describes..

“The saddest thing in the world, is loving someone who used to love you.”

“The saddest love is to love someone, to know that they still want you, but the circumstances don’t let you have them.”

“They say that time heals all wounds but all it’s done so far is give me more time to think about how much I miss you.”

I hope it wont be a emo day for me! >.<

navy?

2008-12-23T14:34:00.004+08:00

im seriously considering the navy as my future career path. choices that interests me are naval officer, naval engineering officer, naval technical officer, naval combat systems specialist and naval combat medic..

maybe not joining at this moment.. perhaps in two years time? after i have enjoyed enough and am prepared to do something for the country.

i can live life once, only then i will be gone. so.. i should at least do something meaningful right?

i know a lot of ppl will consider that very stupid! but then, its a gd thing to consider la. i have to build up my sense of determination and responsibility and grow strong. know more how to protect myself and the ones i love wahhaha.. not such a bad idea right? i know training will be siong and i will feel like giving up.. but thats the whole point. i believe i will cherish myself, all my friends and loved ones and my life more when i have been thru the hardship..

i will not deny that certain factors have brought me to think of joining the navy.. haha.. but of cos its not completely becos of that ONE factor.. im also thinking if the navy could sponsor me thru my university studies under the LSA scholarship plan, it would be good.. hmm~

however, not to worry, i will take it into very deep consideration before i act on anything. =)

try to blog tonight~!

aching legs

2008-12-22T22:55:00.004+08:00

oh man.. my leg are aching like mad..

just what did i do with them?

1. ice skating for 2 hours.
2. playing bball arcade game for almost 8 rounds.
3. running after a bus for about one traffic light distance st raight after ice skating and bball.
4. going full day shopping on the very next day.
5. going gym for treadmill, step machine and situps the following day after shopping.
6. and finally walking home from the interchange after gym.

so.. that is how i killed my legs. LOL! argh..

well.. i din plan to walk home from the interchange as i felt the ache.. but i felt the nice cooling breeze and decided to walk home. so i just sat down so unglamly by the pavement, change my heels to shoes and walked in my working clothes (black spag + pants).

was walking slowly and playing songs on my mp3. i was happily skipping and humming.. then i took a look at the sky.. the stars are so beautiful.. just like the night when we were on the beach.. and then memories flooded in again.. and i just started crying.. you dont wan to know what i did LOL!

im so tired.. i hope i can feel my legs tml~ it was a nice day despite the emo'ing.

tiramisu!!

2008-12-22T00:07:00.003+08:00

wahhaha! im just home not long ago from west plaza.

had dh's tiramisu with baobei and eileen! sad that i have to leave before meh2 come~ and kim was away at bedok 85 so never come..

i feel high and drunk on tiramisu! woohaa!! so shiok! damn nice! i guess the wine and sweetness is getting to me heheeh!

but still feeling a bit tired leh.. although i have been at home for almost the whole day.. i guess im gonna ko soon!

nites guys =)

guai guai!

2008-12-21T15:27:00.000+08:00

its sunday! man.. its so fast..

as you can see, im guai guai at home oh. im so proud of myself..

well, it have been a long time since i stayed at home to rest.. but most of you guys should know why sometimes i dread to be at home ya?

anyways, lets not talk about it!

till now, dec has been a eventful month! i went to a wedding dinner with alan, a ball with chris, opening event at erabelle with dear and ice skating with bro, his fren and donghao!

the wedding dinner was so sweet.. although i don know the wedding, but seeing the pictures and videos, i can feel the love and i feel so blissed. for a moment, i wanted to get married! lol! but it only lasted for an instant. after tat, i thought to myself, why get married when its not with the one i really love? for now, i guess singlehood would be the best and most fair choice for all. i enjoyed myself at the dinner with alan ;) including the fashion show we got sabo'ed for! was a gd try!

woo! i love the ball leh. i dono why but i quite like it. EXCEPT for the eating part. cos i have to eat soooo demurely. my prince for the night aka chris came to my house to pick me up. got me a goldheart necklace as a gift. i was so shocked! he helped me put it on like a gentleman and opens the door to his car for me! like princess leh! haha! we were caught in a jam on our way to sentosa cove where the event is held.

after we parked the car, we made our way to the event venue. and! *here comes the highlight of the day* i fell on my knees. yes.. literally! lol! cos i was wearing heels and i din see where i was walking. but as a regular fall-ee, small case la.. go toilet wash a bit can le. Chris, not your fault okie?! LOL

the atmosphere at the event was really nice. the feel of the breeze and all is so romantic. its like a fairytale leh princess going to ball. pity the ball no prince charming la hoh :x dinner was good. the acapella group was so fantastic! im mesmerised by them. omg. terrific man. i recorded the beatbox solo. kinda good. bring it on guys! u rocks.

ahh! my date, been the POPULAR and CHEEKY guy in is the platoon, kena sabo'ed up to stage being the magician assistant. and got his head inside the chopper thingy.. and.. WOOSH! lol he is still alive nw so.. yea.. its MAGIC~

the event ended around 11plus. we slowly walked back to the carpark. this time he held my hand in case i fall again LOL! the breeze was great. the setup is damn relaxing.. then just before the clock struck 12, cinderella is home =)

LUCKY~ i went to a opening event with dear ytd at Erabelle, and won a VIP SPA voucher worth $800. First time in my life i won something leh. and it is a big value. too bad i cant sell it.. so leongs..

after the opening event, we went shopping! she bought quite a lot of things! shirt, shoes, belt, top and some other things. i bought a rocker checkered skirt. dan we went to change and switch clothes. after that we went to take neoprint! hoho! i will post it up when i scan it!

i reached hm around 11pm ytd.. was really tired. legs were aching from ice skating and whole day of shopping! was happily talking, sms-ing but somehow, i got emo'ed. ard 12plus am i grabbed my cruiser from the fridge, went upstairs, sit by the stairs. memories started to flow, tears began to drop, heart started to ache. Oh well, its good that i relieve my sadness right? Better then keeping in all in! I will die of sufferocation!

Not to worry.. I will be okay soon.. I just need time to heal and forget.

ICE SKATING IS SO MUCH FUN! Donghao took great care of me hence I did not fall! hehe! Bro bought a friend from NTU basketball team with him. She is quite friendly and entertained my cam-whoring :x! LOL! I am so sorry i dragged you to camwhore with the whole gang okiey? Hehe! After ice-skating, we went to the arcade to challenge the basketball game, ME AND DH WON THE BASKETBALL DUO! Im so proud of myself! Hahha!! After that we run after bus 12, took the long ride home to Pasir Ris. Great day! I wish Baobei, Kim and Meh2 will be able to go with us the next trip okays?

Later gotta cook dinner for the family.. This is what i get for being guai at home for one day.. 真是没天理啊！

Its a damn long post :x

YAY~ Baobei coming back today! =)

the start of my blog

2008-12-19T09:35:00.000+08:00

dearest all,

officially, sherz has started to blog.. why? BECOS of my beloved xi fu er aka my pooh bor kia bor.

well.. nth much to type..

i wish her ah ma the bestest health and live strong. be strong dear.

peace out.